5.28.19
Today I took two pregnancy tests, they both said “YES +”.
I suppose I kind of knew for at least a few days. My cycle was supposed to happen on Sunday, and by today, Tuesday, it still hadn’t come. My cycle is regular, I mean regular. It’s literally never late or off, but I figured I’d give it a day or two, just in case. Sure enough, it still didn’t come… so after I got off work today, I went with my husband and bought a box of pregnancy tests. He was calm, I was not.
I came home and went to test right away, I came downstairs and waited for legitimately the longest 3 minutes ever. We went up together and sure enough it said “YES +”. Cue the waterworks. Happy tears with a mix of every other emotion possible. Again, husband is a champ, wife… not so much. Let me clarify, I am so excited. Seriously! I’ve wanted to be a mom for such a long time, and I can’t wait to be one. BUT, as exciting as it is, it is equally scary. Every thought flows into your mind: Will everything work out okay? Will my husband still love me? Will our parents be happy? Will I be a good mom? We will be financially okay? … You get the picture. All I needed in that moment was my husband, and another look at that test. Deep breath. Okay.
No matter what the answers to those questions, or any others that will come, I know that this is exactly what was meant to happen, at the exact time it was supposed to happen, and that’s okay with me.
FirstTimeMama 